It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on here. I’ve been really busy lately. Last thing I posted on here had to do with me being in Arkansas. I’ve decided since then to come back to Iowa, keep working at my old job and save money to buy some land and move out to Colorado. I’ve been wanting to move out there for the past 6 years and something somehow got in my way and stopped me from doing so. Partly it was a fear of change and being alone out there with no family nearby. But now, I have no family left in Iowa, they’ve all moved away. Right at this moment, I have no ties keeping me here in Iowa. No leases, no family, no girlfriend, no legal troubles, nothing. That’s nice to not have to worry about cutting things off anywhere, with anything or anyone.
While I was down in Arkansas, I learned quite a bit about gardening, different trees, building methods, etc. The only thing I didn’t like about the idea of buying land down there is it’s way too damn expensive in most places. I was planning on buying an acre from my parents at first, but over time I decided that if I really wanted to do all that I was planning on doing, I would most definitely run out of room in a year or two. Negotiating with my parents on getting more than an acre would be complete hell. Not to mention that they were wanting to add an extra condition in the contract of purchase that if I ever wanted to sell the land, I had to sell it back to them. Isn’t that about the same as renting? The only difference being that I get my money back and some change? I would most definitely appreciate the value of the land by a long shot and I highly doubt they would be willing to pay the price. That was a definite no-go.
So here I am back in Iowa, working ridiculously long shifts any chance I can get in order to save as much money as I possibly can so I can follow through with this. So I had originally planned on moving out there, finding another job and working until the land is paid off and then trying to focus more on music. My plan has definitely grown to be something much better and hopefully a lot more enjoyable. Now my plan is to buy some land and have music and art festivals on it. The payout for the land owner is pretty decent, enough to cover land payments for 2-4 months depending on how much that will be. Also, I hopefully have a friend that’s a killer chef and loves to get creative with dishes that’s going to come out there and help me develop the land and provide food services for festival goers. I’ve got a budget for music equipment that I can use for my personal production as well as getting the festival thing up and off the ground so I don’t have to pay for those services to be provided as well. Eventually I plan on building half a dozen cabins or so out there for friends family or anyone to come and stay out there for a completely unique experience, a chance to disconnect from society. If I’m able to live out there and make some money renting my land out for festivals as well as making some money off of my music and renting out cabins for people to come stay out there, I should be pretty well off and hopefully won’t have to work another job ever again. Honestly, I’m extremely excited and at the moment, I have more money saved up than I’ve ever had in my possession at any one point in time in my entire life. That feels good, it’s very reassuring. I really feel like I’m creeping closer and closer to my dreams. I can’t wait.
"Generally we are not aware of love. How do you know that someone loves you? The person must declare his love verbally or make a present to his beloved. He has to perform some act to express his feelings. If a person loves you but shows no outward expression of any kind, you will never know of his love.
Love can only be known when it is aggressive. The more aggressive a person, the more love he can express. The quiet lover goes unnoticed because in order to experience serene love, your consciousness must also rise to that level to receive the message of love. We can only grasp violent love. Hence, the more aggressive a person, the more ardent the lover.”
~Osho - The Way of Tao, vol. 2 #17
Hey, I haven’t posted in a long time, thought maybe I should do something about it. There’s been a lot going on since I posted on here last, so here’s some news about what’s going on with my life, music and all that. I moved into my own place late last September, I got a job in October, I’ve been working like crazy since I got the job. That’s about it, really. I do have some new tracks up on Soundcloud though, be sure to check that stuff out if you enjoy my music. If you haven’t heard my music, give it a try, you might like something. :)
I always have issues trying to find something to say to start these posts off, but once I do think of something it all begins to flow. First off, I feel like I’m surrounded by fools, I hate saying that, but that’s about all I could think about the past few days. I’ve learned so much from what people aren’t and what they COULD be doing with their lives, if only they could see these things through my eyes. It’s so easy for someone else to see your faults, especially when you’re at a complete stand-still and all you can think about is everything besides your future and well-being. That leaves me to give as much thanks and appreciation as I humanly can for the experiences I’ve had in this lifetime. I have learned an incredible amount if information and gained more than enough insight to relieve myself of all my petty problems of the past and to push myself towards success in the future. I just wish that some people I’m close to could have enough sense to do the same. I guess that’s life, right? I refuse to think so, but I guess we’ll see. What do you think?